Celebraphobia

Today, I realized my fear of becoming famous is getting in the way of my progress. Recently, while updating the TweakedProductions.com shop, I realized my own picture was missing from the mobile 'about' section. Here's mobile:

Here's desktop:

I am dedicated to Tweaked Productions, and therefore need my face on it. In my last website update, I chose to remove my own image out of a sense of humility and perhaps a fear of being in the spotlight - thus I made up "celebraphobia".

Generally, I struggle to remember people's names and faces. While this is partially due to aphantasia, it still feels disheartening. Due to my unique way of thinking, people engage in conversations with me that are uncommonly genuine. Coupled with my empathy, I often become a confidant.

Dear reader, if we engage in discussions about philosophy, spirituality, humanity, or any other profound subject, please do not be offended if I forget visual details. It's not that I don't value our discussion, but rather that my mind is preoccupied with many things and, as someone with aphantasia, I am incapable of retaining images. Currently, my focus is on promoting my work - which entails gaining more recognition. Despite acknowledging this and expressing it here, I am still likely to unintentionally upset you by forgetting about you. When I do forget, remind me of what we talked about - and we will again be on the same page. Situations like this are becoming more common as I meet more people and gain further fame and success. And I suspect I removed my picture from my website subliminally because of the discomfort I feel when the spotlight follows me off the stage.